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Monday, 2 April 2012

90%

My chances of getting Obstetric Cholestasis in a future pregnancy.  I'd conned myself into believing it wouldn't happen again.  Dwelling on the 60 part of the 60-90% chance of recurrence but last week we saw the specialist who told me in no uncertain terms that I should expect to have it again.

I was doing alright, we have been trying for another baby since the start of the year and we had a plan.  A loose trying not to put pressure on ourselves plan, but enough to feel that I was eventually moving forward.  Now I'm not sure where I am.

Can I really put myself through all this again?  I know they will be looking out for me, early screening, the specialist said.  Medication and early induction if it does reoccur.  I'm fortunate to be on the radar of the leading OC specialist in the country, not directly under her care but she will be there to do blood tests etc if my own consultant doesn't take it seriously.  Is it enough?

Can I live with myself if I don't give it another try?

3 comments:

  1. Its a hard decision to make but it does sound like things will be better monitered this time.Thinking of you.xo

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  2. It is scary to get pregnant again after a loss. I wish I could say it has been easy for me but for a long time I was in a major anxiety state. It's hard to believe that this time things will be different, better, but the extra monitoring by the doctots really helped me out a lot.

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  3. wow, those are sobering statistics. i don't know what i would do if i were in your shoes. i cannot imagine losing a child, i am so very sorry.
    iclw

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