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I've had a really weird week or so emotionally. I guess there's been a lot on. It's been hectic at work and I've taken on a second job. I'm planning on starting up a small business of my own so I need some start up cash but this was really the wrong week to take anything new on.
I've been keeping myself artificially busy. I thought I was doing alright but I realised today that I'm keeping myself distracted so I don't have to be quiet by myself. I've discovered whole new tv series that I was never into before or that I'd gone off. Glee, Chuck, Grey's Anatomy, House... the list goes on. I've been spending my free time watching back episodes of so-so American drama. Then this evening I stayed at home rather than go to a friend's birthday party. I'm simultaneously avoiding other people and spending time on my own. In both I am managing to procrastinate from doing anything of use, from housework, to exercise, to new business plans.
I have bursts of almost hyper activity and high moods then lengths of nothing-ness. Not as much as sadness, more of a flat feeling, stagnant.
all those feelings are so familiar! It's a horrible roller coaster ride. Right now I'm in an alright place, but always wonder when it's going to throw me for another loop.
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